Sandy Hook Elementary Shooting

After the fatal shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newton, CT where a 24-year old man opened fire killing 20 children and several other people on December 14, 2012. (Essdras M Suarez/ Globe Staff)/ MET)

Behind the Scenes:

On December 14, 2012, I got the call at 12:40 p.m., was on the road by 1:20 p.m. and arrived at the scene after 4:00 p.m. due to traffic. By the time I arrived police were not allowing media to drive into town. So I parked in the outskirts of town and walked in.

The school was still a crime-scene area under investigation so it was being kept pretty tight. The church service tonight was the first time the town residents had the opportunity to grieve and to try to process the tragedy as a community.

Tonight I was ashamed of being a journalist after seeing how TV cameras and even some still photographers forced those attending the service to walk through a gauntlet of lights and flashes. Some TV camera people backpedaled in front of parents carrying their children barely allowing for space for the parents to be able to walk. Shameful indeed.

I consider this a complete lack of respect on the part of journalists… the worst part is because I’ve covered scenes like this one in the past – Columbine – I know it will get worst for the people in town as the days progress.

Today I tried to stay at a respectful distance while hopefully still telling the story with my images. And when I did get close is because things happened right in front of me where I was waiting.

Tech Stuff: ISO 6,400+, D3 and D3s, 24-70mm 2.8 and 70-200mm 2.8 + 1.4 WB Auto